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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I couldn’t, believe it.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We all went to grammer schools

Who then, do I blame.?

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My family never makes their pension either.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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Comes on , in middle age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

How do I seduce my sister? (I am an Indian) I want to have sex with her.?

As i do to all so called friends.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

It was going to be , some day.

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This is soul school!.

But it wasn’t much.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She loved him until the end.

I think the readers, may guess!

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I write beautiful poetry .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She was in good health!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She found it foreign!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But, we were locked up after school.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Would this be the day?

I have no regrets .

We were not on the streets..

One cannot live in the past .

He knew the spot.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Put me off passion for life!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I never cut or harmed myself..

So whats the point in blame.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I will be 64.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And i lived it daily.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

All the time i was locked up.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

When she asked me how she looked .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Ive learnt so much.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was very sick at this time too.

She married twice! .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I don,t even have a pension.

Im still living with it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I said to her

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

So, i spoilt her more .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Was to survive, this bastard.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My life is so biszare .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I waited trembling.

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was scared of men, in general

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

What did i know ?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

(And it was in our own minds.)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was seconnd youngest,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was 9 years of age.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She wouldn,t have been !

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.